the cost of dream
I understand that such way could bring me some earnings, and the received money could enable me to purchase the desirable things I desperately need today, but I do not wish to spot my canvases - I do not wish to lose self-respect (do not wish to become the liar) : I am not the creator of the light but only its admirer.
I think the above picture portrays my emotions well enough, talks eloquently. Yet how to put such 'art' into the simple words? What do I do? Am I promoting the faithfulness (witness the spirituality), or just hide personal inability of the disabler to do provide for myself under the mask of the philosophy of the fine arts?
I surrendered hope to take a good camera one day and became ashamed of myself - is that the cost of dream?